What happened to you? You used to cry when you got hurt, or were upset. You used to laugh with pure excitement and pleasure. You used to look forward to the day with eager anticipation and imagination.
Somewhere along the way was it a little too much? Maybe there were too many people frowning at you for your “disruptive” noise? When did you shut down? When did you try to behave? When did you really take that upon yourself?
Oh sure, an adult has to deal with the “real” world. Come on, take a look at that world! Seems half the population is on anti-depressants and other medications. No one is happy, everyone is scared and worried, and everyone is blaming everyone else. What’s going on? You want to be like that? You’re not seeing a bunch of grown-ups, you’re seeing a bunch of repressed, angry children in aging, worn-down adult bodies. They’ve learned how to “act like an adult.” Just like you have. And they’re scared. They’re acting out. And they’re trying to fix their problems by blaming and controlling everyone else. Just like you’ve been doing. And they’re miserable. Just like you.
How many times have you looked at children and marveled at how free they are, wondered what it would be like to be that free again? Then sighed and moved on, deflated?
What if that could change?
What if you could let some of it out again? Maybe you’d start to find that spark again.
Would you like that?
Don’t know how?
It’s simple. Maybe not easy, but it is simple.
Stop holding it in.
Stop pretending you don’t hurt.
Stop pretending you’re not frustrated.
Stop pretending you’re above it all.
Get messy. Tear-stained, snot-nosed, hoarse-throat messy.
Embarrassed, red-faced, quit-your-job, identity-crisis messy.
Let it out even if you think it’s silly.
Especially when you think it’s silly.
Or stupid. Or inappropriate.
Do it in a safe, non-harmful way, but do it.
Give yourself permission to really go for it. Whatever it is.
It’s not just you. You’re not the only one who’s pretending.
We are all volcanoes, ready to explode. And the only ones who actually feel good are the ones who have been letting it out.
It’s not about feeling bad. It’s about letting the bad feelings out, so that you can move on and enjoy life again.
Dare to let go. A little at a time.